I’m having a dumb week. I don’t really want to play poker, but I made a bet and a goal that I would play 17 hours this week, so I’ve been trying to force myself. I don’t know if this is something I should do, but it seems like I NEVER want to play, so I gotta force myself some time.
I have been losing this month, and I think how I handle it on a daily basis depends on my overall mood that day. Yesterday I think I was in a good frame of mind and I actually wanted to play poker, so I didn’t care that I lost. Today I didn’t want to play and was in a much worse frame of mind, so I got much more annoyed when I didn’t win.
I guess there is merit to actually wanting to play poker before playing. I don’t really think I can listen to myself when I feel this way, though, until I develop better habits of actually playing on a regular basis every week. So in the meantime, I sadly think I have to just keep forcing myself to play.
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