Poker

I only played 37 games total, 27 of them $200s. When I first started playing, I lost my first 5 out of 6 and it was pretty tilting. I’m sure I would have been tilted no matter what stakes I played since it was mainly versus one person, but I’m also sure the increased buy-in made me more tilted than usual.

Since I played only a few games, I don’t really have many thoughts on $200s vs $100s. I know that I played mainly (or only) regs because regs always sit new people in lobbies. The players that I played were certainly more aggro than I’m used to so I might have been a little slow to adjust to that. Mostly I feel like it went okay.

Lobbies were incredibly tough to get today. I’m not sure whether it was my computer or my Internet or a problem with PokerStars. I’ll find out next time I try, I suppose, which will be tomorrow.

I thought it would be good to document the fact that I’m about to load my first $200s HU hyper SnGs and I’m kind of nervous for some reason. I am not sure why I’m nervous cuz it’s not like I haven’t played $200 SnGs before, so it’s a little confusing.

I’m gonna have to play regs all day today, I think. GL me

Satellites to LAPT Peru started today. I made the final table of both package satellites but got 3 outered on one and 2 outered on the other. Pretty disappointing.

I’m planning on purchasing my flight to Peru this week, so if I don’t manage to win a package, I’ll just be buying one with FPPs. It will be pretty sad to not win one, though, since I’m planning to play as many of the satellites as possible.

So yesterday I broke even and felt super tilted at the end of my session, and today I lost money but feel fine. Makes sense, right?

Yesterday I didn’t want to play poker at all but I forced myself. Today I actually didn’t mind sitting down for my session, and I guess that was the difference. I felt annoyed today when I was losing at some points, but the tilt didn’t ever really build up.

Day off tomorrow and then 4 hours on Friday. Then I’ll have reached my goal for the week 😀

I’m having a dumb week. I don’t really want to play poker, but I made a bet and a goal that I would play 17 hours this week, so I’ve been trying to force myself. I don’t know if this is something I should do, but it seems like I NEVER want to play, so I gotta force myself some time.

I have been losing this month, and I think how I handle it on a daily basis depends on my overall mood that day. Yesterday I think I was in a good frame of mind and I actually wanted to play poker, so I didn’t care that I lost. Today I didn’t want to play and was in a much worse frame of mind, so I got much more annoyed when I didn’t win.

I guess there is merit to actually wanting to play poker before playing. I don’t really think I can listen to myself when I feel this way, though, until I develop better habits of actually playing on a regular basis every week. So in the meantime, I sadly think I have to just keep forcing myself to play.

Today was tilting. Ran bad and then HEM mocked me by saying I ran over EV.

I probably didn’t play my best today. I think I might have punted a couple stacks, but it wasn’t anything too terrible. I don’t think I felt emotionally perfect during my session today, but I can’t pin point any particular reason why.

I ran a bunch under EV today and ended up having a losing today, but I think it all went really well because I barely felt tilted at all. I don’t check my results until the very end of the day because checking results usually tilts me. Since I wasn’t tilted at all today, I just assumed that I was probably up a bit in the end. When I checked and saw I was down a decent amount, I was surprised.

So far I’ve played almost 13 hours this week, which is good. I plan on playing 3-4 hours on Friday to round out my week at 16 or 17 hours. Next week I’m gonna make a goal to play 20.

No tilt today, mostly because I ran hot again. Typical.

I talked briefly about my motivational problems in an earlier entry. Ever since I quit 6-max, I’ve slowly but surely played less and less hours of poker. It got really bad and stayed that way for a couple months. I barely played all summer.

I’m trying to fix it now, though. I guess I didn’t realize how important it was to make goals for my motivation. To get myself back in the game, I made a goal to play 15 hours this week. It sounds like a low number, but it’s a lot more per week than I was doing the last couple months.

I played four hours today. I noticed that I was getting lazier and not playing as well during the last half hour I played. I suppose I’m not used to playing this much HU in a day and I was getting tired. Hopefully this improves as the week goes on.

Today was not fun. I wasn’t up money at any point today, and I ran pretty badly. I felt annoyed and mildly tilted pretty much every hour I played today, which is slightly disappointing.

I’m not sure what to do about feeling mildly tilted all day. I didn’t get really upset over one particular thing or another. I guess it was just “I hate losing” tilt. And “wtf why can’t I beat this reg” tilt.

Losing happens pretty regularly when you play HU. I better get used to it fast.

Quick post cuz I gotta go. I pretty much woke up tilted today and felt super unmotivated. I am not sure if I am supposed to not play when I am like this or if I am supposed to just tough it out?

I luckily didn’t feel too tilted while I was playing, though. I ended up making a bit and running over EV.

I’m having motivational problems lately, something I am going to work on this month.