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short poker update, longer life update

Poker has been good to start 2013. I’ve managed to play 30 hours so far this month, and I’m on an upswing. Over 700 games my EV ROI is 4% but my actual ROI is 6%, which is pretty nice. My average buy-in is a bit lower than usual because I’ve mostly been playing between $100 and $200 stakes, and I’ve been playing mostly soft games as a result.

I feel fortunate that I’ve run good playing poker to start the year because the rest of my life hasn’t been very fun. Last entry I wrote about someone close to me being an alcoholic, and I’m gonna just call her Sarah in this blog from now on (not her real name, of course). I never knew that someone’s alcohol problems could affect other people so seriously, but they really can.

I’ve been more on edge and less happy during my every day normal life ever since I got involved with Sarah’s drinking problem. I’m most stressed out and unhappy when I don’t know what is happening and when I don’t know if she is okay. After two weeks of being sober in the hospital near the end of December, I remember being worried and anxious every day after she was discharged that she would drink again.

I realized that I was so stressed out in part because I felt like that I should be doing more to help her and prevent her from drinking. I had to consciously tell myself that I wasn’t responsible for her drinking and that it wasn’t my fault if she started drinking again (which she did three days after he hospital discharge).

I also spend a lot of time worrying about what is going to happen next and the things that I have to do to help her next. When things are in limbo and I don’t know what is going to happen, I get really anxious, stressed out, and unhappy. It’s really tough to prevent myself from feeling this way. I have also been having trouble sleeping lately, which I have to assume is from this additional stress.

Right now Sarah is in the hospital. She was sent there from detox again because of confusion issues and I’m not sure when she is going to be able to leave. I am waiting to find out whether she will be sent back to detox or whether she is going to stay in the hospital because I want to sit down with her and a social worker to figure out the next best course of action for her rehab.

2013!

Happy New Year!

Instead of blogging about my goals for 2013, I have been listening to this on repeat and laughing my ass off:

Robots – Flight of the Conchords

It’s probably old news to you, but I’m obsessed with it right now 😀

I played a very short session of just $100s the other day. I wanted to get my brain thinking about poker in an easy and relaxing session before a real session. My first real session will be Friday, although I am planning on playing just $100s and $200s.

A blog post summarizing how disappointing 2012 was is coming in the near future, as well a short blurb about my goals for this year.

post session

I played my only day of poker this past week today, again playing only $100s and $200s. Volume on PokerStars and Full Tilt was extremely slow, but I got lucky and got to rematch a couple fish plenty of times. I played 129 games and 91 of them were versus this one fish at $100s. He was very bad but also ran pretty bad in the end and lost 9 BI to me.

It was nice to have a winning session today. I’m only down a few hundred dollars on the month now, which is also nice considering how December started.

I don’t intend to play again until next week at the earliest. Have a Merry Christmas!

post session

This past week has been stressful and emotionally tolling for personal reasons, so I haven’t played much poker. I hear I haven’t been missing out on much, though, because games have been mostly awful.

Since Friday and Saturdays are the best days of the week to play poker in my opinion, I decided to play a few games the past couple of days. Because a large number of people are trying to get Supernova Elite before the year is over, a lot of regs are resorting to playing other regs at higher stakes to get VPPs faster. Due to this and not really wanting to play regs all day, I decided to just play $100s and $200s the past couple of days.

Playing lower stakes has been pretty nice because I pretty much don’t play regs all day (for a change). I have been on a pretty annoying downswing since coming back from Peru (and just before it), which appears to have me tilting a lot easier than usual. I particularly remember getting extremely annoyed today after losing 7 straight $100s to a fish today, which is just silly considering the stakes are so low.

(I feel the need to interject and say that I just read the post I made before this and I’d also written about losing 7 BI to a fish. I guess 7 is that magic tilting number for me :P)

For the rest of the year, I plan on only playing when games are good. I’m not really interested in playing few games per hour and mostly regs, so I’ll likely just quit any session that doesn’t look promising in December.

post session

Had another bad day. I actually got some decent volume today, but I couldn’t win a hand today. I felt pretty tilted during some rematches versus a fish when he was up 7 BI on me and I couldn’t win a hand.

I ended up losing 6 BI to him overall which was pretty annoying, but I’m kinda sad I got so tilted. I’m pretty sure I played fine versus him despite my annoyance, but it would have been nice if I wasn’t yelling, “omg can I win a flip” every 2nd game 😛

yawn

Not much to say other than the action has been insanely slow this past week. I’ve come to realize that not getting enough volume is more tilting that most kinds of other run bad. You pretty much just remember every single game you lost and there is no chance to play other games to get over the tilt of bad beats.

I managed to play over 100 games the other days this past week, but today I couldn’t even get 20 games/hour. I sure hope this isn’t a sign of things to come for the rest of the month because if it is, I might end up taking more time off than I thought.

post session

Today was insanely frustrating. Felt tilted for the first time in a while during rematches with some random. He seemed somewhat competent but made plenty of mistakes that I couldn’t hold against. I ran plenty below EV vs him and feel really frustrated about it.

I feel pretty annoyed with poker at the moment. The last few days back to online have been insanely tilting overall.

goodbye november

Well this month was my first losing month of poker this year. I only played half of the month so lack of volume played a part. Hopefully December goes better, although I’m only planning on playing half the month again, this time because of Christmas.

back to work

Well I’m back from an amazing trip to Peru. I had a wonderful time and have a lot of memories and photos. I keep meaning to write a trip report, but I haven’t gotten around to it. At the very least, I’ll probably write an LAPT trip report and post it on PokerListings soon.

I thought a lot about online poker when I was gone. By the time it was time to go home, I was looking forward to playing again.

I reviewed yesterday but didn’t play any games. Today I dove right in, playing 126 games which is a lot for me. It’s actually the most number of hypers I’ve played in one day since I started playing them. In total I lost around 10 ABIs.

Lobbies were awful today, so I played around 90% regs. I mainly just rematched people that decided to sit my lobbies. I played mostly 200s and 300s today, with 28 $100s thrown in. Somehow half my losses came from the $100s.

At this point I’m mostly interested in playing as many games as possible and improving as much as possible. Lobbies are going to stay bad until the end of the year since many people are grinding SNE, so I’m not expecting soft games. I don’t think I am -EV vs most regs at the stakes I play, so playing lots of games at this time of year isn’t going to hurt me that much. I can probably expect a lot of variance, though.