Well today I lost a grand total of $30.85, my best full day of tournaments since the start of August. The next step is a positive day…
Today was unbelievably frustrating. While I made a couple mistakes, overall I thought I played great, but I just couldn’t get anywhere close to a final table. I played 16 large field donkaments and ended up with a 43rd, two 39ths, and a 23rd (in the 22 1R1A again, sighh).
Throughout the day I was just AMAZED at some of the calls I was getting when I shoved. Twice I shoved over raises with over 20bb and got called by KTo. I also got called by 89s for 20bb and K4s for 15bb. The fact that these people think that these are good calls is really great, obviously. I just wish my luckbox would realize it should be winning these show downs 😛
I was on the verge of temper tantrum tilt probably 3 times today while playing. It’s frustrating that I can’t control myself more. I feel like it just keeps building up and it’s very annoying that I am letting myself get like this throughout the day.
The only person I usually talk to on any instant messenger while playing is Dave, which is unlucky for him. I vented my frustrations to him throughout the day, and he was nice about offering sympathy while ignoring me at the same time. The fact that I keep freaking out is pretty bad. I think that tomorrow I will make it a goal to not complain about getting unlucky at all to anyone during my session.
I ended up playing 8.5 hours, way longer than I intended today. I had originally planned to do some writing for FTR after my session, but I’m way too tired. Tomorrow I have to start at 12 pm for MiniFTOPS, and I will probably only register for 3 hours because I have a lot of work to catch up on.
Hopefully in the near future I can master my tilt so that months later I can reread this entry and laugh at myself for being such a baby.
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