Poker

I had a really hard time getting motivated to play today for some reason. I didn’t want to get out of bed and then I totally dragged my feet when it came to getting started. I used to feel like this really often last year when I wasn’t enjoying the games I was playing, but this is one of the first times I’ve felt this unmotivated since switching to HU.

Volume was extremely bad today, which was frustrating. PokerStars is running Happy Hours promotion this week, and I think it’s made the games even more reg-infested than usual. Or it’s just a coincidence, but whatever the case, games sucked.

I feel pretty sure that I lost money today. I played quite a few hours so I guess I might be wrong, but I didn’t feel really good about anything all day.

Had a good past week. I ran bad to end February, and then I ran hot to start March. In the end I ran at around 4% ROI, which was around 1% over EV ROI. I’ll take it 🙂

February overall was okay but not great. I’ll probably write something in more detail about it soon and post it on PokerListings.

Action was bad again today. I have no idea how I did. I had my usual tilt at times when people won a bunch in a row. I gotta figure out how to stop tilting because of this.

Overall I think today went okay, although I have no idea if I won or lost money (standard me).

I thought I slept perfectly last night, but I’ve been tired and groggy all day. Not sure why, and it’s really annoying.

I played a short session and ran just terribly. I played fish the entire time and just got beat in ridiculous ways. I’m giving up because action is terrible, I’m tilted, and I’m tired.

Today I discovered that losing several consecutive hands in a row tilts me a lot. I had two games that started at the same time and it really tilted me when I lost half my chips on both tables because I had to fold every hand in every situation.

It’s such a stupid thing to get tilted about but it really pissed me off more than anything has in a while. I just sat there with <300 chip stacks on both tables after not winning a single hand in either SnG and feeling like I wanted to rant and rave (which I definitely did obv).

I dunno what it is about stuff happening all in a row that ticks me off so much. Like I could alternate winning and losing all day and end up break even and it wouldn’t bother me even 1% as much as winning half my games at the start and then losing the other half at the end. I almost think I wouldn’t care at all in the first scenario and I would break my computer in the second scenario.

Talk about irrational…

Slept decently last night despite no melatonin, which is awesome! I’ve been allowing myself to wake up without an alarm, though, which means that I’ve been getting up a lot later than I usually would on poker days. Sundays usually get really slow after around 5 pm for poker, so I only played 3.5 hours today.

I looked at my results for the day when it was over and was pretty surprised to see that I’d run 12 ABI below EV. I didn’t really feel tilted or frustrated today even though I was apparently losing all day, which is really good. I felt really annoyed near the end of my session when I lost a bunch of 200s in a row and then got snap declined when I finally won one, but it was mentally a lot better than my graph would have suggested for the rest of the day.

Finally played real sessions yesterday and today thanks to improved sleeping for two nights. Both nights I took melatonin, so there’s a good chance that’s the reason I slept better. I’m going to try to sleep without it tonight and hopefully it’s fine.

I think I ran well yesterday. Today I’m not so sure. I’m pretty tired at the moment and stopped my session after I couldn’t beat a fish at the end. He took 7 buy-ins off me and then I just declined and gave up because FML. It’s pretty tilting to lose over and over to someone that plays awful, but I’m just too tired and tilted and sick of getting coolered to keep going.

Prob had one of my worst days ever where tilt is concerned today. I hadn’t been playing for more than an hour when I already felt very tilted by the way I was running, so I took a break to calm myself.

Things were okay in the middle of the session, but then they got very bad during the last couple hours. I was playing a really aggressive fish and was down 8 BI to him at one point. While I was obviously running really badly and overall playing fine, I don’t think I played my best. It took me a bit longer than it probably should have to figure out the optimal way to exploit him, which I’m a little disappointed about.

I would say that I was so tilted that I wanted to start crying and throwing things twice today, which is a lot of times considering it usually doesn’t happen at all. Sure I get tilted on a regular basis and bitch and complain, but not so badly that I want to start crying like a stupid little girl.

I’m glad that I wasn’t able to look at my results during the day. I still don’t know how much I lost. I think that most of my run bad was at my lowest buy-in, which didn’t provide me any solace while it was happening. I don’t know if it should, either, but I do know that I probably would have been even more tilted if it were at my highest buy-in instead (which is a bad thing).

It’s been a while since I tilted this badly playing poker. Obviously, like most tilted people do, I ignored suggestions to quit the fish I was losing to and take a break. I think it’s accurate to say that most people are incapable of quitting a fish that is running hot, even when they know that the fish is probably insta-quitting the rematches once they lose one (this happens 95% of the time). This is almost certainly very bad.

Yesterday was pretty silly. I definitely have to work on not getting so tilted when I lose a bunch of games in a row. It’s pretty hard to do when I’m sleep deprived, which is why I don’t usually play when I haven’t slept well. Part of me thinks I should work on this, but the other part of me thinks that whatever, not playing when I don’t feel well is a good idea anyway.

Today I played 8 hours to slightly make up for yesterday’s punt. I really don’t feel like it went well at all, but I think my grind partner did a good job with not letting me complain too much 😉

Overall I’m happy with how I controlled my tilt today; it wasn’t perfect, but it wasn’t awful either. I don’t think I lost a lot today, though, and more think that I just ran quite a bit below EV.

Very addicted to this song right now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKvEUJpAEQc