As the title suggests, my day was up and down. In particular up at the start and then a cliff dive at the end. I felt like I was having a great day until my last hour or so. During the last hour I lost almost every game I played, including 13 straight games to a fish that ran super hot.

I felt really bad while that fish was winning. It was mostly because I hate losing, but also because it was at $200s so it added up to a lot of money. I think it’s safe to say that the little losing streak I had vs that fish un-did the rest of my day. And it’s stupid to think that way, but I can’t help it.

Other things I couldn’t help doing was saying stuff like, “Why wouldn’t that hold” when unfortunate cards fell and also sweating my show downs super hard once we were all-in. I guess that once it gets to this point I should probably stop playing? I’m not sure how much my play drops off once I’m this tilted, though. I should possibly review some HH’s tomorrow and find out.

I really wish today was Saturday so that I could take a day off. But sadly tomorrow is Saturday, so another day I guess.

I forgot to mention yesterday that I got really tilted near the start of the day because I was losing a lot of games after getting my opponents really short. Obviously once you get your opponent down to less than 10% of the chips in play, you expect to win very often because it’s pretty hard to come back from that. Yesterday I lost a lot of these games in a short period of time, though.

This tilts me more than almost anything in HU SnGs, which I’m sure I’ve mentioned before in this blog. I definitely got irrationally bothered by it yesterday, and I was way more upset than I should have been when it was happening.

I guess it goes back to that consecutive losses kind of thing. For some reason my brain can’t be content with the fact that yes, sometimes unfortunate things can happen all in a row. Yes I can lose 10 coin flips in a row. My brain knows it’s not likely and as such tries to convince itself that therefore it shouldn’t happen. But obviously I logically know that that’s not true, of course it can happen.

Anyway, just wanted to put that on the record since this blog’s original purpose was to keep track of the things that tilt me most.

Really amazing volume today, I was so happy with it. Played less hours than I was supposed to because I slept badly and had to sleep in, but I still got to play a lot of games.

I also think I ran really good today, which is also nice. Hopefully this week ends up being a good one to make up for the rest of the month!

I played just over 8 hours today, and volume was quite bad. I started off the day hunting the same low stakes reg I’ve been hunting, and he sat/declined one of my $200s yet again. I called him out on it and told him that it would cause me to sit his lobbies even longer, and he trash talked quite a lot. He told me I was running hot and that he didn’t care if he played me anyway.

After that he promptly went offline so that’s that, I suppose.

Overall I feel like I had a really good day. I had one 45 min period where I was god moding and couldn’t lose. I felt like I won all my flips and hit every flop I was seeing. That was really nice and something I haven’t felt much this month, so it was pretty fun.

The rest of the day was just normal grinding and I think I did okay overall, which I’m obviously happy with. I’m just glad that I had a good day today after my blah day yesterday.

Today I did not enjoy poker at all. I felt extremely tilted all day over the smallest things, and I just felt uncomfortable and not in my element at all.

It wasn’t even that I was losing, although I am not sure I won either. It overall just felt like I ran average but everything was just way more tilting than usual.

I got most annoyed during times when I would go from no tables at all to five at once because my PokerStars lobbies filled at the same time and then I got sat on my Full Tilt tables at the same time, too. It seemed like this kept happening and I kept irrationally tilting over it.

I’m not sure if I just have leftover tilt from yesterday or if I was more sensitive to losing after yesterday or what. It’s stupid whatever it is. I’m glad the day is over.

I’m looking forward to March being over too.

I tried to play a session today, but it only lasted two hours because Full Tilt and PokerStars kept disconnecting. It’s probably good that it ended because I ran about the worst I’ve ever run in a 50 game span! I started the session off losing 16 straight, then I lost 13 buy-ins to a fish that said “great game, ty for 1k” and quit shortly after (obv after getting a few more).

I unfortunately had another week of runbad. I broke even after 1k games which I suppose is good for running bad but not really ideal for making money. This month so far I am pretty much a RB pro which is really frustrating because I am trying to make money to leave for Malta.

I could go to Malta without making another dollar if I wanted, but I really would prefer to have more of a cushion before I leave. The timing of the negative variance is pretty unfortunate.

Edit: my most loyal reader/grind partner/poker mentor/sushi-paying-friend wanted me to add the fact that I didn’t tilt during my bad stretch today. We were on call using Skype at the time and he said he didn’t know I was running bad. Yay! I did tilt, but it was in my mind 😛 Gotta tilt silently first, and then I can work on not tilting at all when I lose 😉

… for a special person! I got in trouble for not writing an update on Wednesday or yesterday, so here’s an update. For my most loyal reader <3

Today was pretty tilting. I had to play a reg for a couple hours, then the fish games were just frustrating for the next few hours. As usual I complained more than I should and I definitely went on slight monkey tilt when I had software problems and misclick min raise/folded vs a 5bb stack 🙂

I had an upswing at the end of the night when I won a bunch of $200s and also came 3rd/4th in one of the $100 hyper HU MTTs, though. That was nice, so at least I can leave on a good note.

My grind partner (and coincidentally the special person for which I’m solely writing this post for!) told me that he knows I ran good at the start of the week because I didn’t complain those days, so that’s a bad sign I guess. I have to work harder on not complaining.

Overall I’m just glad today is over because I’ve been in a bad mood all day. Back at it tomorrow.

Poker was fun today, so I think that means I must have run good =P

I spent the first half of the day hunting some low stakes reg that decided to sit/decline one of my $200 lobbies after running hot when I sat him at $100s. I actually added $60s to my lobby so that I could sit as many of his $60s as possible when I had table space. I probably can’t sit all his $60s cuz that’s just too many tables, but I’ll make sure he doesn’t get any $100s.

(moral of the story: don’t sit/decline someone that is going to make you pay for it)

The second half of the day I sat some 3/6 and 5/10 HU CAP along with my SnGs and that was pretty fun. I lost a couple hundred but my EV was good, so I’m happy with it.

Back at it tomorrow.

I was SO looking forward to today, and this time it wasn’t just because I’m a huge fish that wants to know their results for the week 😛 It’s because I’d played 6 days of poker in a row and it was my first (and only) day off this week. It’s been so nice to just relax and not play today.

Today was also results day, though, which I did not forget about 😉 This past week was the best ever for volume where HU is concerned, which isn’t a surprise because I played 40 hours of online poker and hadn’t done that since I played MTTs.

Since I had run pretty bad the week before, I decided to drop down and just play $100s for a week to pad the bankroll a bit. In the end I ran at 3.3%, which is maybe a bit higher than what I would expect for a $100 ABI. I took a look at my EV, though, and wow apparently I ran super hot. Apparently EV says I should have run at a -1.3% ROI? Hmm.

Now I feel sad. I wasted all my run good at $100s!!! 😛

I’m enjoying my day off while I can, but I’ll be back at it tomorrow. I’m looking forward to another solid week of poker where hours are concerned. I have more going on so it’ll be a lot tougher to get 40 hours in again, but I’m gonna try really hard.

Played another 9 hours of bad volume today. The entire day was pretty tilting and I’m extremely glad it’s over.

This past week I’ve realized how terrible many of the $100 regs are. It makes me laugh how quickly some of them mash the “accept” button in the rematch window. They’re losing at a solid 3% clip but they don’t care because of their giant egos.

Ego in poker is fantastic. It makes decent players a lot of money.