…of playing HU SnGs. I played a total of 9.5 hours which is the most online poker I’ve played in one day since I grinded MTTs. Volume was awful but I really wanted to play at least 200 games, so I stuck with it and I’m glad I did.

I’m pretty annoyed at the moment because I timed out of my last game of the night (no idea what happened, didn’t even know the table was there) and I got my chips stolen by a lower stakes reg. So he sat my lobby and stole my chips when I timed out, both of which are insanely annoying to me.

I have no patience for regs that deliberately steal chips from people. I was barely timed out for that long, yet I saw him sit there and steal my chips as fast as humanly possible. It’s just so scummy and such a bitch thing to do, especially when we played a few games vs each other earlier in the day.

It’s pretty sad if you are a reg and you feel like you have to steal chips from sitters/disconnectors in order to win a couple extra buy-ins. Maybe become a winning player so that you don’t have to steal your way to that $30 hourly or whatever awful profit you make.

/rant

Getting off the computer finally.

Worst week ever at HU at least, I don’t really remember my worst weeks playing other games! I lost around 40 average buy-ins and ran almost 50 below EV.

It sounds really stupid, but I am almost relieved to see that I lost that much money because this past week was very mentally taxing and hard to endure. If I’d felt that bad while losing less than that, then that’s a pretty bad sign.

Of course I need to get to the point where losing the money doesn’t bother me. I’m obviously nowhere close to there yet. My mental game needs a lot of work.

I’m now down for the month in HU SnGs which is obviously disappointing, but I feel mostly okay about it. I plan on playing a lot of hours this coming week and I’m excited to get back to winning.

A lot of people (including myself) have wondered why more woman don’t play poker. I definitely know that being a woman is -EV when it comes to poker if you just want to look at it from an emotional stability standpoint. Women have hormone issues once a month. It’s the truth!

What I’m trying to say is that I hate hormones and hope they die in a grease fire. And also that all things being equal, I’d make more money if I were a man.

/rant

Had one of my worst days ever playing poker. No clue how much I lost, but I know it was bad. I wish it were one of those days where maybe it just felt bad but maybe I broke even or made money, but today was not one of those days. Today was a blood bath.

Try again tomorrow.

I had a really hard time getting motivated to play today for some reason. I didn’t want to get out of bed and then I totally dragged my feet when it came to getting started. I used to feel like this really often last year when I wasn’t enjoying the games I was playing, but this is one of the first times I’ve felt this unmotivated since switching to HU.

Volume was extremely bad today, which was frustrating. PokerStars is running Happy Hours promotion this week, and I think it’s made the games even more reg-infested than usual. Or it’s just a coincidence, but whatever the case, games sucked.

I feel pretty sure that I lost money today. I played quite a few hours so I guess I might be wrong, but I didn’t feel really good about anything all day.

Had a good past week. I ran bad to end February, and then I ran hot to start March. In the end I ran at around 4% ROI, which was around 1% over EV ROI. I’ll take it 🙂

February overall was okay but not great. I’ll probably write something in more detail about it soon and post it on PokerListings.

Action was bad again today. I have no idea how I did. I had my usual tilt at times when people won a bunch in a row. I gotta figure out how to stop tilting because of this.

Overall I think today went okay, although I have no idea if I won or lost money (standard me).

I thought I slept perfectly last night, but I’ve been tired and groggy all day. Not sure why, and it’s really annoying.

I played a short session and ran just terribly. I played fish the entire time and just got beat in ridiculous ways. I’m giving up because action is terrible, I’m tilted, and I’m tired.

Today I discovered that losing several consecutive hands in a row tilts me a lot. I had two games that started at the same time and it really tilted me when I lost half my chips on both tables because I had to fold every hand in every situation.

It’s such a stupid thing to get tilted about but it really pissed me off more than anything has in a while. I just sat there with <300 chip stacks on both tables after not winning a single hand in either SnG and feeling like I wanted to rant and rave (which I definitely did obv).

I dunno what it is about stuff happening all in a row that ticks me off so much. Like I could alternate winning and losing all day and end up break even and it wouldn’t bother me even 1% as much as winning half my games at the start and then losing the other half at the end. I almost think I wouldn’t care at all in the first scenario and I would break my computer in the second scenario.

Talk about irrational…

Slept decently last night despite no melatonin, which is awesome! I’ve been allowing myself to wake up without an alarm, though, which means that I’ve been getting up a lot later than I usually would on poker days. Sundays usually get really slow after around 5 pm for poker, so I only played 3.5 hours today.

I looked at my results for the day when it was over and was pretty surprised to see that I’d run 12 ABI below EV. I didn’t really feel tilted or frustrated today even though I was apparently losing all day, which is really good. I felt really annoyed near the end of my session when I lost a bunch of 200s in a row and then got snap declined when I finally won one, but it was mentally a lot better than my graph would have suggested for the rest of the day.